Sleep Inductor

Eyelids burdened with heaviness,
Brain cells paralysed with sleepiness.
Preception on the edge of senselessness.
Awareness at the brink of unconciousness.

Sleep is a luxury i can't be given,
Cursed to stay awake and left forsaken.
The taste of freedom almost forgotten,
Hanging by a thread dreaming of heaven.

Droning of the machines' so hypnotizing,
Knocking me out even when the sun's still rising.
Only music around is the hydraulics orchestra singing,
You can't really blame me if i keep day dreaming.

On my semi concious mind is chocolate fudge,
Tried to drift there but i really need a nudge.
Somehow my hazy mind just won't even budge,
Hope the person waiting doesn't hold a grudge.

This freaking place is like a sleep inductor,
The air around here is like a sleeping gas inhaler.
Need to gather my thoughts but its taking forever,
Need to stay awake and not trip the circuit breaker !

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Seriously. Tick Tock already.

When you move around but time doesn't follow,
Obviously there's a problem and a gap in the flow.
While you sit at a spot like a weird freak show,
Why in the world is time moving damn slow?

Miserable is such an inadequate word to explain,
Attempts to escape boredom that ended in vain.
Confined in a box without knowing the sun or rain,
The loss of my time is not worth the microscopic gain.

Precision of the machines in a pace so steady,
Buzzing of the alarm when the molding is ready.
Staring at the clock we nicknamed "speedy",
Seriously clock, just tick tock already.

Snails and tortoise never seemed to move this fast,
Unless you're in a continuum where present is the past.
How many more 60 seconds can i struggle to last,
Before my brain and body all starts to rust?

Wasting manpower just sitting there idle,
Betteroff doing things like playing the fiddle.
If not for expanding my knowledge's cradle,
I won't even be in this Mini stagnant puddle.

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Sem break : Weapons laid to rest !

Till the next sem begins...

Hey Bristol !

Hey Bristol, do you even know?
What makes you pretty is not the summer or snow,
Nor is it the scenery or beauty that you have for show.
It is the girl that needs a huggie when the temperature is low.

Not to say Bristol, that you ain't beautiful,
But you just loose by a little and that's just pitiful.
It's hard for me to give a huggie when my hands are full,
And she's so far away there's hardly strings i could pull.

So Bristol, why are you keeping her cold?
Have you lost your heat or is it all sold?
Would you turn up the temperature if i give you some gold?
Or would you rather i give, her smile in the form of a mold?

Cuz you see, her smile is like the best thing ever,
Its like the first ray of sun shining after winter,
With the warmth and comfort belonging to summer,
You and I both know, we could watch her smile forever.

So Bristol, why don't you keep her warm?
She's quite a busy girl but you know she has her charm.
There's only this much i can do cuz i'm like stuck in a farm,
But I just want her to know that, i do try to keep her warm. =)

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AsK

Have you paused for a moment & see where you stand?
Have you stopped for a second & take a view of the land?

Are you standing on the the spot you imagined you would be?
Are your dreams on the tips of your finger & not just a maybe?

Am i still the same person I am back then?
Am i still looking for memories that never happen?

Should you be sorry for the things you had done?
Should you be regretting things that couldn't be undone?

Breath the air of the moment and see what i see.
Walk the path of the moment to a 360 degree.

Moments i do not own i still do not have.
Bitter is the sweetness i still do not have.

The road before me seems a long & tiresome one.
At least my shadow's beside me & i'm not the only one.

Fear the future and whispers of the past,
Lost in a maze that is crumbling fast.

Ask rhetorical questions till i'm numb.
So even if there's no answer i won't feel dumb.

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Is iT ALright?

Is it alright to just go with the flow,
Even when it leads to a path of sorrow?
Moving too fast will leave your life hollow,
But if you stand still you'll never grow.

Is it alright to just drift away,
From a ship that's on a constant sway?
Every friendship comes with a price to pay,
But ending or sticking to this one brings me no gay.

Is it alright to just rely on fate,
When there's no guarantee it'll land you a date?
Life right now is like a giant wooden crate,
Break it, or wait for love to be served on a plate?

Is it alright to lay back all the time,
Or would one consider it a heinous crime?
When you're falling behind & living like slime,
Should you put more effort & make it worth the dime?

Is it alright to wonder if everything's alright?
Because everyone sees things in a different light.
Swimming in the ocean with no land in sight,
The moment of clarity will be pure delight.

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DefeCt

A deviated bullet loosing it's accuracy,
A lousy processor loosing it's competency.
A shattered will power loosing it's efficiency,
A confused human mind showing it's deficiency.

Why can't i do what i always plan to accomplish,
Why do i only stand to watch my dreams demolish?
Can't i complete a fool's errand without feeling foolish?
Pieces of everything crumbling and yet i am still selfish.

Lack of pride to stand erect,
Everything short of perfect.
A living proof of imperfect,
Seems to me that i am defect.

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Adrift

Every morning i wake up groggy.
All around me everything's foggy.
Things i want are always so dodgy,
All this adding up and making me edgy.

Everything seems vague this time around,
I don't think even my feet is on the ground.
Throw me in a basket for the lost and found,
Somebody find me and put me on a mound.

My life is simple and my life is plain.
I once had a purpose but now none again.
Maybe i need stimulation maybe i need pain,
Maybe i should just shut up and not complain.

I am drifting afloat from here to there,
Lost in the current that gets me nowhere.
My drive & interest are scattered everywhere,
Staying put and focused seems like a moment so rare.

I'm adrift and i know it but i can't do a thing.
Every failure i encounter is another small ding.
What i seek is not in favour of what fate brings,
But i know i'll find my way when my angel sings...

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One word says it all

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When you don't know what to say of your life, your plans, your current situation.
When you are disappointed and the world is a miserable place.
When there's no emotion to show how you are feeling.

When you need to express an outrage.

When there is a void you can't fill.
One word says it all.

One word says it all.
Say it once and you will say it again.
Understandable even with a low vocabulary.
Shock some people yet so normal to some others.
Ryhmes coherently with the situation and the moment you say it.
Letting everything out in a short expression that leaves much satisfaction.

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The Wait

Hard cold seats provides nothing homely,
Stares of strangers a tinge too chilly.
Silence feels just a bit too lonely,
A minute seems 60 seconds too many.

Thoughts of things i should have done,
Thoughts of things i could have done.
Flinched at things that shouldn't be done,
Wished that some things could be undone.

Flipping through pictures of people i miss,
Trying to remember my very first kiss.
Flashing back my process of metamorphosis,
Retracing steps that lead my life to this.

Remembering people i lost touch & now regretting,
Remembering precious people who never stop caring.
Waiting for images of my memories to stop flashing,
Waiting for the stationary clock to continue ticking.

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